Aikido training

seok ping & me..in our hakama..

decided to wear my hakama for training..haven been regular for training..so feel rusty..so dun wan to wear it..though i obtained my brown belt quite long ago..coz i had this mindset..i'm nt tt zai yet..wear hakama means u are zai..i feel i'm still nt up to it..but seniors kept asking us to wear it..dun be a bad eg for our juniors..nt to wear the correct rank u shd be at..i feel i'm stagnant at my level..my peak was in yr 2..before i injured my back..when i went for grading for blue-gold..i feel i'm quite gd tt time..really..but now..i'm scared of a lot of things..getting lazy..mindset is nt right..stagnant..so i know for next few yrs, i wld nt be going grading..but seniors are always encouraging..they assured me tt my std is there..but i dun feel so..i know myself..maybe the gals seniors r too zai..so i feel pressure..if my std nt there, dun go for grading..dun wear the hakama..

the wearing part is difficult..with my stiff brown belt..nt seasoned yet..i looked weird i think..it was funny..pple were crowding ard us to watch us wearing it..coz both sp & i dunno how to wear..so get hz to help us..rasco too..

training with it was fun..hha..i feel we wld get the posture correct..so we wldnt step onto it & fell..haha..when i roll, ok lahz..no prob..but kneel down & get up like will trip..need to adapt..i think it wld be difficult to kneel walk with tt..han tiong nt here..on business trip again..

we did hip throw again..well i got fear of it..coz it was this which got me injured..but then i'm learning to overcome it..it's true when u get injured..u learn how to avoid it..so far when i landed on the mats, it was correct..but i dun feel safe with juniors..sorry abt tt..i feel they feel the same to me..sorry ahz..i cldn't get the technique myself..pulled my arm muscles..quite painful..need to rest a while..then the weather very humid..tot it was due to my hakama..feel a bit giddy..i din haf dinner..so rest a while..david got injured when he landed..dunno why..i think he hits the back of his head..gosh..his vision got black out a bit..but he's alright..every sports had its dangers..we learn to take care of each other..this is impt..