First day after the long CNY break

well well well..supposed to be term break for us..but why am i waking so early to go sch?haiz..wat to do..final yr in sch le..but i really felt sianz..managed to get up at 7plus..but then still hesitating wan to go sch or nt..coz as i was lying on my bed..i suddenly tot NO DCM how to do my mono..yes..i am repeating TT synthesis again..wat to do..then i tot of i got review, presentation test..blah blahz..was thinking staying home to do review wld be more fruitful if i go sch coz maybe cannot synthesize mono coz i got tuition in the late afternoon..rushed for time..haiz..today was the day manz..was the day where sometimes i wld get really stressed up & get really really down..

reached sch..went to check the level of argon gas..haiz..looks like depleting soon..no more argon tank for replacement..sianz..no DCM..sianz..no liquid nitrogen..when i'm feeling really down..everything will be sianz to me..will make me dun feel like doing anything..

intended to go for running if i set up my mono & let it drip..but then..felt so tired & sianz..(sorry ahz..dunno how many times i wld mention this)..so din go..boss talked to me..looks like more things to try..i felt happy..but at the same time, i dun haf the time..haiz..

things got a bit haywired today..jie made a mistake when teaching hwee to do bis..then she broke something..cant find clean rbf to use..but an interesting thing happened was..jie saw a dragonfly dead in snow white's oil bath..i was so amazed..coz it's like a specimen there..nicely immersed in the oil bath..but Jie was extremely scared & felt gross.. i think the dragonfly was so ke lianz..coz it muz haf landed on it to rest..then realised it had stepped into quick sand..tried to struggled but the more it struggled, the more it sank & finally cldn't breathe..so ke lianz..i think no one dares to use tt oil bath le..

my tuition kids are twin..heez..quite cutez..they got a younger sis..all of them are lovely..andrea loves to whine..haha..but ok lahz..since she's a kid..i can tahan..always tell me: i dun like maths..oh..coolz..i'm so smart.. ha..these sisters like to bicker ard..but still lovely..heez..her dad gave me an ang pow..wasn;t expecting tt..coz i only go there to teach..din bring mandarin orange somemore..andrea was staring surprisingly at her dad..as he gave me the ang pow..then her dad said:"why? she's still entitled to take ahz..unless she's married"..then he laughed..so funny..then wat's best was..andrea turned to me & asked:"how much?"..haha..dun u think she's so cutez? heez...:P..when i checked out the ang pow..my gosh..i think it's quite a lot for juz a tuition teacher like me lohz..i was shocked..my mum laughed at me..hmmmz..

met er jie for lunch..she's nt feeling gd..i felt shitty abt myself..coz i cldn't help her also..i wished to pei her more..but i dun haf the time..she juz need company to keep her occcupied..so she wont think so much..really hate tt guy..stupid guy..dunno if he is a girl or guy..so wishy washy..kept misleading pple..i wan to scold him..he;s hurting my er jie so much..felt so sadz..i dunno wat i can do to help..but to keep her company..she even asked me if she;s boring..then why he dun wan her..i even pei her when i heading to tuition place coz on the same bus..we enjoyed the times tgt..she can;t bear me leaving her..coz she knows she wld think of him again..she still sms me after i alighted tt why i haf tuition today..if nt i can pei her on bus..i dun like her saying abt wat wanting to die..i hate tt..i know it's difficult to control thinking..but i felt tt she's feeling really very pessimistic..yet i can;t help her much..juz hope to spend more time with her..she's having a real tough time now..